"Leaving in four minutes. Put shoes on in the car." That's me.
"Hold onto your butts - I'm making this turn." Once again, me.
(15 minutes later...)
"Ah, now isn't this nice? Disneyland is always so nice." Same ol' me.
It happens time and time again. I rush to have fun. By hook or by crook, Molly makes family fun happen. More like "forced family fun," according to Brick on The Middle. (See previous post, "One 'Heck' of a Show")
And by forced I mean, "Wheee! Look at us on Thunder Mountain Railroad - having a blast!" (Wind in our hair. Screams. Fun is happening all around us.) And then my 15-year-old yells at my 8-year-old, "Put your arms down. It's embarrassing!" And of course, I yell back (while protecting my back from sharp turns), "Stop mothering her! She is having FUN! We are on a roller coaster! This. Is. Disneyland!"
So typical, letting my kids have it while having fun. So very Molly, too - getting all excited for something, but then getting cranky. You know, that day-after-Christmas feeling. And I've noticed a pattern of "always looking to the next thing" in my life:
--While eating breakfast, "Mmm, wonder what I'll eat for breakfast tomorrow?"
--While planning Fathers' Day with my sisters, "And I was thinking, for Fourth of July, we should set up a slip-n-slide in Mom's front yard."
--While enjoying Thanksgiving dinner, "Next year I'm going to use sweet potatoes in this casserole instead of yams."
And it's rubbing off. My littlest girl recently said, "I still don't know what I'm going to be for Halloween." She said this on June 3rd, people! And we're not even big on Halloween. I just think Fall and pumpkins and candy are amazing. So what's happening - am I creating a monster? A mini me?
Is this really what I want? One-roller-coaster-to-the-next, fast-paced excitement, only to pop-out at parties that make me un-poop-ular? (A little Lucy for fun.) Or... Or could it be that I was made for more?
C.S. Lewis wrote, "If I find in myself a desire which no experience can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that I was made for another world."
Truly my favorite quote, earthlings. Because of course I love looking forward to fun stuff. That's a no-brainer! And sure I want that fun stuff to go down perfectly. I was created to want that, to long for that. Ecclesiastes 3:11 says, "He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the human heart; yet no one can fathom what God has done from beginning to end."
So as heaven awaits, a few changes are in order. No more dashes in my "dash." (Again, refer to "One 'Heck' of a Show.") And by the grace of God, I'd like to stop and smell the roses. (That's if I don't trample them as I rush to have fun.)