But those days are gone. Over. And based upon my latest female lunch date, it looks like my deep dish pizza splurges will be a family-only event from here on out.
Observe along with me:
Friend #1: "I'll order the BBQ Chicken Salad with no black beans, no cheese, no corn, no BBQ sauce. And no other kind of sauce."
Friend #2: "I'll also have the BBQ Chicken Salad, but with lettuce, tomato, and chicken ONLY. Please make it the entree size as this is my main meal for the day."
Friend #3: "And I'll have the 'same' salad, but no chicken and no dairy. I don't eat dairy. And definitely no BBQ sauce. It has sugar."
And friend #4 is me. Oh the pressure! It was junior high all over again, only food instead of Swatch watches. My dream of having an exhilarating break from the daily lunch grind of Cheerios and dried-out carrot sticks has gone out the window.
And with each consecutive order, my prospects went from "I'll take the deep dish ham and pineapple pizza with a side of ranch, please" to "okay maybe I don't need the ranch" to "alright then I'll keep the ranch but make it thin crust" to "I guess I'll do what the cool girls are doing."
And I did just that:
"Um, make that four BBQ Chicken Salads - I mean, I'll be the fourth one to order...one of those types of salads. Got enough lettuce back there? (Awkward giggle.) And I'll just take mine, uh, the way it...comes? And maybe add avocado?"
Like I needed permission to order the real version of the salad. But I did get major props for adding the avocado. Two of them even went ahead and added it. (Who's the cool girl now?)
So as I entered a mild state of unrest - outwardly saying things like, "Ooo, I've never had a Mock-tini before!" to inwardly thinking, "Is my coroner's report going to one day say: 'death by genetically modified wheat?'" - my thoughts oddly settled on Thanksgiving.
Thanksgiving. These poor girls! How are they going to do it? Will they be dipping rolls in the butter jacuzzi that has formed in the center of their mashed potatoes? Will their cranberry sauce touch the stuffing that's touching the turkey that's touching the broccoli casserole? The world may never know.
Or maybe I'm the "poor girl," not sticking wholeheartedly to current nutrition trends? Let's just say I'm glad Thanksgiving is about more than food - whether it's paleo, vegan, or boxed scalloped potatoes with sodium levels through the roof.
Instead, we all know Thanksgiving is about the dessert.
What I mean to say is...Thanksgiving, for me, is about my ten-year-old's ultra-vibrato version of Katie Perry's "Roar." It's my husband's hearty laugh at really juvenile things. It's my mom's cozy couch and In-n-Out cheeseburgers at her coffee table on any given night.
Thanksgiving is also about thanking God for his faithfulness to me - even in all my doubting and my "I am, and there is none besides me"-type thinking. A God who day after day covers me, from first sip of coffee to last hobble up the stairs on my creaky knees, with his lavish grace. And, of course, a God who loves me the same same SAME even if I had gone with the deep dish.